Rules.

You do know one thing about me. I do hate rules. Why? It's a thing that have been created by the human beings and cannot be questioned by the human's itself. Seriously. We are following it, because we're scared of the punishments. What if it's all about God's rules? Many disobeyed it. Because, we can't see the punishments. That's human. And, to see God, we can see through this one eye. It is called as believe. Why, don't believe me? Still wanted the proof? Okay. Let me explain to you. Human being is not perfect. And, everybody agrees with it. We have limits. Everyone agrees it. How can we see something supreme, when our capabilities are very limited? We are not qualified. We're just only, a servant. And, this world..only for a while. We should do good things, in order to die in a good way. Even, the law of differentiation have its flaws. God is perfect. Believe me. He is perfect. God doesn't have flaw. And, I am admiring that superior creator. Creator of the Heaven and the Earth.

Knowledge

Dear Readers, When I was so young, I am so curious, how they are entering Jannah? Why, some says, it is easy to enter paradise yet, it is hard. I can't really figure it out. And, what about syirik (A person that makes God equal or less equal to the others). How can this be proved? When, I learned the true syirik, I wonder, everyday, is it I commit syirik? While, I am not idol-worshipper, while, I think I am still praying to Allah. Without I realise it, I have commited Syirik. You know, what's that? As-Syirik As Asyghar. A hidden Syirik. I am scared if I failed in exams, but, today Allah makes me realized, not exams, it is something more. Something that I must see very far, it is God's love. When people asked me, "What do you want in life?" Why am I so stupid telling them, what have human's taught without thinking beyond than that. I said, " I wanted to be a successful person. I wanted to achieve victory. I wanted everything that brings good to me." But, I forget, "I wanted to be good in front of Allah. I wanted to please Allah." And, He promise me a victory, everything good that I want. I just forget that. And, everyday I am doing it. I spend my time seeking for knowledge, but, I forget what I aimed about. Not exams, not victory but Allah. I should. Forgive me, my Lord. I am scared if Allah don't look at me at Akhirah. I am not pious, I am not an angel. God, I can't see You, but I can feel You. I am such a fool! I can't even think about it! Think nicely about Allah. You know, one-day, I loved this person so much, so, she is. I regard her as my bestfriend, as we can't separate at all. But, Allah, at that time, He take away her heart. As time goes by, she don't bother for me at all. And, I am crying thinking life is so unfair. Yet, Allah wants me realise that there is nothing permanent except Him. He awaits for me, He wants me to get nearer to Him, He wants to give something best for me. But, I am so unrealized, I am thinking of that person, that person who has no power on everything! Even, she can only consult me, not changing the situation into a betterment! When I wanted that thing so much, He didn't give me. He makes me lose it. Why? Because, He doesn't want me to depend on that thing, but Him! He consulted me through knowledge, gives me lessons through situations and gives me courage through punishment. FORGIVE ME MY LORD!

YEAH

Hope and Dreams :(

Dear Readers, From now on, I am a new person. Not that person who believes in dreams and hopes. For me, it is just a remainder for my broken hearts. And, thank you, for teaching me to be as this brave. I don't know that my heart is harden and cold, after so much of tears that I have wasted all this time. And, my hope is broken to pieces. I know that I have troubled mom and dad, because of the dream I had. What I will do, because of God, nothing else above Him. And, I won't dream anything after this, not even a prince charming. Because I knew it, hope can give you either these two, happiness and failure. I will work hard because I fear of the things that I will regret, not the hope of paradise. And this is me, the new person. Which, I will full my mind with knowledge, not the hope and dream that I have planted. Mom and dad, sorry for being me, but sooner I am transforming. Only, with the absence of hopes and dreams I shall be brave. I am a coward because I dream about it and I couldn't realise it. I am a total coward. Yet, without dreams and hopes, I know the consequences, which I will find my life is so dull like there is no colour in my life.

Answer to An Atheist

1. If, you says that Allah created everything, who creates Allah? (Surah Al-Ikhlas) "Allah in the name of The Most Affectionate, the Merciful." "Say you, He is Allah, the one." "Allah the Independent, Care free." "He begot none' nor was He begotten." "And nor anyone is equal to Him." 2. Why Allah never showed up? (Al-An'aam 6:103) "No vision can grasp Him, but His grasp is over all vision: He is above all comprehension, yet is acquainted with all things." >>>>This is so little reading of mine, so, I guess you all should go back and read Quran, once again. Please, if you don't understand, read for the translation. Believe me, you all will get the answer.

Friends

Dear Readers, In life, we may have a lot of friends yet certain people may have little friends. Still, we have someone that keeps us accompany. See, how much Allah loves us? He sent someone to become our friends or family to us. You know, there's a girl that I regard her as my best friend. But, she only sees me as her friend. I am so sad to know the truth yet, I will comfort myself telling that, "It's okay Farah, Allah still loves you." Yes, that way I will never lose hope and still do the kindness. Although, devils whispered to my ears, telling that all the humans are hypocrites. Why I should do kindness towards them? And, angel said, "Because there's always kindness in everyone's heart even though s/he is hypocrites." Yes, that's what I do believe. Friends? Yes, like AA said, "Just be friends with everyone." Thanks, AA. Dad said, "Make friends, not enemies." I will always remember that, dad. And, there's no such friends forever. Because, they are not forever with us. Allah is forever with us. That's what I most believes in. Thanks to Allah for generating my brain in order to write this article. And, don't be sad if we don't have any friends in this world. There must be someone who's willing to befriend with you. Just be yourself. There must be someone who loves you for whom you are.

Doa

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani, Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku, Yang Menguasai Hari Pembalasan, Pada permulaan ini, aku panjatkan kesyukuran kepada-Mu Ya Allah, Kau ampunkanlah dosaku, dosa keluargaku, dosa rakan-rakanku dan dosa pembaca blog ini, Aku redha, Ya Allah, dengan segala ketentuan-Mu ini, Sesungguhnya, aku mengharapkan yang terbaik dan sesungguhnya, Engkaulah perancang terbaik dalam hidupku. Berikanlah aku keputusan yang cemerlang dalam SPM seboleh-bolehnya 7A, Ya Allah. Berikanlah aku A+ dalam fizik dan English Dan janganlah Engkau menggagalkan aku, Ya Allah. Aku ingin membuatkan ibubapaku tersenyum gembira dengan kehadiranku ini, Ya Allah. Sesekali aku tidak ingin melihat mereka berduka. Tolonglah aku Ya Allah, dalam menghargai jasa mereka, Dan matikanlah aku dan mereka dalam Islam. Sesunnguhnya, aku ingin mati dan hidup dalam Redha-Mu Ya Allah. Ya Allah, janganlah Engkau jadikan aku dan keluargaku di kalangan golongan yang kufur, dan lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengan cahaya hidayah-Mu Ya Allah Janganlah Engkau bebankan kami dengan dosa-dosa. Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin.